the pink cupcake and her funky frostings .

its jus u & me.

my number one AGAIN.

im happy.

he's happy.

we are happy.

is it too fast for me too date again? *thinking....*

nahh... tis is life..

n im enjoying every freaking minute of it.

went out with chubb2 yesterday..

was awesome..

he fetch me at Shell again..

and i was later for like 35 mins..

dun blame me baby , u said yourself i was worth the wait...

hehehe...oops...

anyways, den we go S'pore.

we go lepak at AMK.

we go break our fast at AMK banquet again..

chubb2 ordered Tom Yum for me...

damn nice.worth the money sia...

cost only 5.80 wif tom yum and 2 rice.

gt alot2 of mushroom , chicken , crab balls &stick .

chubb2 wanted my mp3, so i let him hear la..

he was speeding like one freaky speed devil.

thrilling BUT i almost peed in my pants cann?

a taxi cut into our lane and almost pushed us to the barrier.

lucky for us, chubb2 pick up speed and made it through.

i swear tt was memorable.

the more memorable one is the kiss by the riverside.

and we became cam whores today.

LOL . hilariously-superbly- funtastic!

you spoke those 3 magic words.

i was taken aback.

i didn't expect to hear it so soon.

those words felt so real and true.

wish i could say it back to you.

i gotta find that assurance in my heart .

cos i don't wanna rush.

i don't wanna lose you.

you mean so much to me...

i wanna be with you.

for now, later and forever . (:

my number one.

eversince da breakup i tot i'll nvr date again. but someone showed me the meaning of happiness once again. I was alive, i made jokes!and people actually laugh. i felt so happy and satisfied that im back to myself again. days passed and fasting month was like around the corner. Im still me , Shana. I was again up to my normal mischief. And believe me. I miss being bad, a rebel. But not to the point of beyond repair. Jus a normal way to show that im still a teenager. I still gotta live baby. My new date whom i shall not reveal till we are serious was there all the way. He made me laugh , excited , he showed me the thrill of going beyond the limits of riding a bike. I am happy. But being a normal human being feelings develop. Im scared to go another level cos i dun wanna kill what we have. He's neither too good looking nor not good looking. He's jus fine the way he is. His bike is superr hott..for the first someone who loves me for who i am. Im tired of pleasing boys. My turn now to be pampered . im seriously looking forward to the life with him. Hope what we have last longg. i ain't gonna put too high hopes. He's my shooting star and he's my favourite. my iswan , my numba one!

haha.  =)

he's working noww..

poor baby.

LOL.

im jus happy beyond words.

weeeee  ~

new found love.

the reason y id un update is that blogging reminds me soo much of him..i tried my best to forget him...i did what i could and i managed to get him outta my head.That would be for now i guess. Life has pretty much been a whole roller coaster ..more of the downs than ups actually. Im pretty dissappointed with my life. I couldn't believe i threw my life for that someone. What a joke. i thought he was my last. But he ends up being a jerk. more than that i think. I gave myself to him, wishing he would do more for me. you are such a dissappointment. I think the label STMF suits you pretty well. Gave me false hope, and me being such a good gerlfren trusted you with all my heart. In the end , you gave me shit. Im actually glad you left me though. I've move on and dating people. And you know what im actually happy with him. And i tot evrsince u left , i will never be happy. Bullshitt... anyways, kudos to me for gaining back the strength i lost. When you fall down in life, pick yourself up and brush the DIRT off.

stronger.

im getting stronger everyday.

i jus dunno how to cope.

im putting my past behind me.

cos he's jus a wonderful dream in mylife

which last only for awhile.

i tried hard and waited long enough.

only to be let down by his coldness.

i tried to think the best of him.

but all thats bad overwhelms the good.

so yeaa.

if i were to weigh it out.

he's not for keeps.

so cheer up love.

you can do it.

you have many people who loves you in ur life.

embrace them for what they are worth.

but no matter what ,

no one can heal that huge and nasty scar u left in my heart.

im now a strong individual.

i have my dreams to chase.

im gonna enrol for bike license.

of course pass faster than him.

and pass the first TP.

and WOHOOOOO!!!

im a free womann!

yeaaa!

i have boys to date =)

i got my project to keep me busy.

i have other friends who WANTS my attention.

so yeaa.

wth.

y am i wasting my time crying over you.

your jus a normal guy.

and i bet theres plenty like you out there.

im too precious to be wasted.

get that in your head mister.

shana's back.

outing with sweetchips!

heartbrokenn.

mended my heart with joys of life.

friends made my day!

shopping!shoppingshopping!

break up.

finally.

its done.

everything i waited , n got hurt for is over.

he's gone.

nvr coming back.

not turning back once.

to say he still loves me.

i've missed him soo much.

i wanted him back in my life,

i went overboard.

how can he turn his back on our memories.

our love.

im crying my heart out.

with Kelly Clarkson "Already Gone" song.

repeating over and over agiain.

its better to be hurt now den later.

im crumbling to pieces.

even food dun appeal to me.

who am i to kidd?

i still love him soo much.

yes i do.

soo soo much.

sheeshhaaaa again.

miss you, yes i do.

i want u soo badd.

i need you to be mine again.

i wan tat chubby cheeks.

that annoying laughter.

i want i want i want my babylove back!

second time round.

faking my love ,
faking a smile ,
wishing that hurtful feeling would stop ,
your face brings back the bad memories.
which continues to haunt me.
too much words left unsaid ,
u left me no choice .




Oh oh oh yeah
Babe

Last time I though we have this talk
Boy you were getting ready to leave
I thought baby you have done
Cause for a while you can barely look at me.

This time I thought that we`d be fine
That I`d forget the things that you said
I tried crossing out your words

But baby you can not forget the past (x2)
Still baby

Chorus:

I’m so unpredictable
you don’t know what to think
So unemotional
Wonder if I’m even still in love
You see
I don’t know what to tell you now
Is always harder the second time around

Im so unpredictable
Just like you used to be
So unemotional
Boy I can forget the way you were with me
I don’t know what to tell you now
Its always harder
the second time around (x2)

We tried going back to Joe’s
That always was our favourite place
Long rides baby by the coast
Do you remember where we sit

Last time we where hanging out
You were acting kind of strange
Now it’s the second time around
I’m sorry now it’s me that feels this way
Its me that feels this way, babe

I now you are the one that is hurt

Chorus:

I’m so unpredictable
You don’t know what to think
So unemotional
Wonder if I’m even still in love
You see
I don’t know what to tell you now
Is always harder the second time around

Im so unpredictable
Just like you used to be
So unemotional
Boy I can forget the way you were with me
I don’t know what to tell you now
Its always harder
the second time around


I`m not sure the best way to say this
But I can’t pretend to love you no more babe
This ferris wheel`s got me crazy
Maybe the second time around is not meant for us babe
Not mean for us babe yeah!

Repeat chorus (x2)